Sometimes so much time goes by between episodes I start to think was never really sick. I start to tell myself that maybe I was never really bipolar. Maybe I was just depressed. Maybe all I ever needed was someone like Remi to come into my life and heal me with her love. The healthy, [...]
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New Schedule for Sasha is No Bueno
I’m fucked. I am so totally and royally fucked. I’m actually freaking out right now as I write this. I would be at Lana’s house, but she’s where I should be right now. Class. Me? I’m home, losing it. As usual. Let me back up a bit. The last month or more, I have no [...]
Can A Tattoo Save Your Life?
Some of you may recall a bog I did a long time ago about wanting to get a tattoo. At the time I was contemplating getting Angel wings on my back or an Angel on my wrist. Before I go on about my reawakened desire for ink, I should tell you that I am presently, [...]
Monday Night Blues
After self-medicating last night with a few extra sleeping pills and some prescription strength Ibuprofen for a migraine, I got some very medicated sleep. Slept in late and woke groggy. But as I drank the giant cup of coffee Remi put in front of me, I took a mental inventory: Migraine? Gone. Mood? Better … [...]
No Rest for the Wicked
…. then I must be pretty wicked. Someone get me a broom and a big black hat! Seriously I can’t sleep. A few days ago, I have no idea when …. time is nothing to me right now. I was feeling really down. Like really, unbelievably down. But not in a dangerous way. More in [...]
Sucking it up for Pride
Long Beach Pride is coming up this weekend. Woooofuckingdooo. I don’t want to go! Let me begin by saying that I have bitched so much about not wanting to go, I’m tired of hearing myself complain. Or maybe that’s mostly in my head, but still …. I have to listen to it. I know I [...]
Dear Natalie
Natalie left a comment on my previous blog and it read: Hey Sasha – Wow, this one was kinda all over the place…I know how it feels to have a brain that works this way. One bipolar lesbo to another…just make sure you’re taking care of yourself and doing the things you need to do [...]
A Slippery Slope
I wanted to say thank you to my readers that leave kind words of encouragement, like from my old friend. Or strong words of discipline, that I NEEDED to hear, especially coming from a fellow traveler on this particularly bumpy road. And to my readers that write private emails filled with personal stories that mirror [...]
My Latest Obsession
After the latest reminder that a good traveler, I am not. I found myself obsessing over the idea of getting an Airstream to hook up to our new Mini Clubman. See photo above to see how cute it is. Here’s my logic: Part of what I hate about traveling is being away from my dogs. [...]
Slipping …
I know I haven’t finished telling you all about my experiences at Dinah. I don’t know what’s wrong, maybe it’s that lame bipolar thingy that keeps rearing it’s ugly head. To be honest, I think that’s why I didn’t have a better time at Dinah. I wonder how many other people with bipolar have issues [...]
Bipolar Bisexual Lesbians …. OMG
OK, apparently I offended my bi-sexual readers with my last post about Bi-Sexual Lesbians. That was not my intention. Especially since when I wrote it, I was talking about myself. Gasp!!!!! What??!!!!! No, not Sasha!!!! Well yes, it’s true and if you’ve been a faithful reader you already know that I’ve had boyfriends in the [...]
Yummy Dyke Drama Concluded
OK people. Thank you for ALL your input ….. especially the very lawyerly sounding advice from Baba . I know that my reasoning on these two topics is contradictory and doesn’t follow a logical line of reasoning. However, love is never the easiest thing to stay objective and rational about, so give a girl a [...]
Am I Jinxing it?
OK so if it wasn’t already clear that I have the best girlfriend in the world, let me recap: For Valentine’s Day this year, she bought me a Mini Cooper! Then yesterday she bought me an new little pocket camcorder so I can start video blogging, or vlogging as it’s called. If it sounds like [...]
Daisy Chain of Depression
I’m in a funk … and I mean a major, sucky funk. As I’m sure you’ve noticed by my lack of posting anything for a while now. While I don’t want to sound all complainy I will allow myself to explain the recent chain of events that my girlfriend pointed out to me last night [...]
Friendship and BPD
Life doesn’t stop for your problems. Life doesn’t even slow down. You’re on the highway of life, barreling down the road at 100 miles an hour and when a bipolar episode hits …. it’s like wham! Crashing into the guardrail at full speed, without a seat belt on. But instead of shattering glass and the [...]