Well hello all. Long time no see. Yet again I come writing with a heavy heart from my little corner in Ohio. My brothwr died two days before my birthday in January. And so I have been hiding away in my little hole. I do however make all kinds of time to stop by and read. Just not comment. Im like an internet stalker.
Before I go on I’d like to talk about my brother. He was 17. Would turn 18 in June and be graduating (thank god his high school is still giving him a diploma). He died of a siezure on January 20. He was my whole entire world and rock. He made me laugh when no one else could and pissed me off like only a little brother and best friend could. Im walking in a walk to support the research of epilepsy. This is something that is near and dear to my heart and my brother only ever asked one question about his epilepsy. WHY? If you can find it in your hearts just to find out more information by clicking this link.
Im not necessarily asking for donation. I have about thirty people who will be joining team Cody in this walk next month to honor and celebrate my brother. He was an amazing kid.
On a not so holy crap could it get any worse note. My girlfriend and I are expecting. We’ll call her … Andi. It’s kind of a long story as to how this happened but it involves relationship issues, a lot of alcohol, and some not so good choices on her part. We werent together at the time and I am all too happy to make this baby my own. Biggest question is. How do you explain that to people when they asked how it happened? Most people know I wouldn’t be supporting in vitro so soon after I lost my step son.
Another question. I am a self professed butch. Sometimes a boy. Only with a y. No i. Do you think its weird or odd that I have been contemplating carrying a child at some point in my life? Im the only one left to carry on my bloodline with my brother being gone. And its important to me that I be able to do that. Sorry for the long random blog. I hope yoy all find yourselves well.