A few of you may remember reading about my friend Tony and her woman drama with a femme fatale named Willa. Well, something has recently come to light concerning my friendship with Tony and well …. she knew I would have to blog about it. So here it goes.
First a quick history briefing on my relationship with Tony to save you having to dig through old posts.
I met Tony at the first MMA gym I ever joined. It was a Krav gym out in West LA. It was also at this gym that I met a woman, we’ll call “S” and we struck up an instant friendship. S was and still is a strikingly beautiful woman. She’s also a working actress but at the time I met her, she was an unknown with stars in her eyes.
I was instantly attracted to S and as our friendship progressed from sparring buddies to flirting buddies to shower buddies, my feelings grew for her. But this was the first real experience I had ever had with another girl, and I wasn’t really sure what I was doing. She had an on again, off again boyfriend at the time and so did I.
We never really had “the talk” about what exactly our new found relationship really was. But this is what it entailed: we saw each other four or five times a week at the gym, were always sparring partners, hung out after the gym and before the gym, would go to clubs together on the weekend and made out a lot. We made out A LOT. But remember we were both “straight” so even though things got pretty hot and steamy and about as far as two girls can go together, we never used any labels for what we were doing.
We were never “official” but this went on for a little over a year. During this time, Tony was right there with us as our mutual friend. But I always thought that we were a little closer then she and S. There were plenty of times that S did something shady to me, like leave me at a party to make out with some producer or ditch me for some famous rocker she wanted to bang. And every time she left me stranded up in the Hollywood Hills, it was Tony that I would call. And it was Tony that would come to my rescue.
I remember one particular night, that S and I had gone out clubbing, handcuffed to one another. This was one of her favorite tricks. We would dress all hoochied out and handcuff ourselves to each other. Then we would go the hottest nightclub at that time, wherever that happened to be, bypass the long line of people waiting to pass through those magical velvet ropes and when we got up to the bouncer, smile and show him our bound wrists. It never failed. One look at S (who is beyond hot) and the handcuffs that linked her to another girl and we were in like Flynn.
Anyways, back to this specific night. Once we were in the club S spotted some hot shot producers in the VIP section and made her way (our way, since I didn’t really have much choice in the matter) over there. Fast forward in the night and I’m sitting there with my date, S, who is now sitting on some sleezy guys lap, making out with him. Now remember, I’m handcuffed to her still so my arm is unhappily draped around this tool as well.
After a few minutes of this humiliation, I demanded that she give me the key. (Oh side note: S was a control freak and a very very dominant personality. I am not.) She refused to give me the key but instead simply unlocked herself and then went back to what she was doing.
I was so mad at this point that I told her I was leaving. To which she simply waved me off as if I was now dismissed. So I made my way out of the club and onto Sunset Blvd. It was then that I remembered that S had driven and I was S.O.L.
Fanfreakintastic!
So I got out my cell and went through my numbers looking for someone that lived close by and was a good enough friend to come pick my lame ass up. Tony, at the time, lived in the hills so I took a chance and called her.
Fifteen minutes later, she pulled up to see me, dressed like a hooker, smeared eyeliner from crying and a set of handcuffs dangling from my wrist.
She opened the door and I hopped in. She looked at me up and down and started laughing, “Um should I be on the lookout for the cops? You look like you just busted out.”
I know I must have looked like a broken call girl that escaped from the paddy wagon but I didn’t even care. My heart was hurt that this girl I was so into kept treating me like dirt. Remember I was brand new at lesbian thing. But Tony was not, she was a card carrying lesbian for the better part of 20 years at this point and she knew exactly how stupid I was feeling that night.
She took pity on me and drove me to her place so I could get myself together. We ate Chinese food and I spilled my guts to her about how much I liked S and how this was my first time with a girl and all the other embarrassing things about my love life at that time. She was a good friend and listened and then ….. well ….. somehow we ended up sleeping together.
……. this story is too long for a single post, but I really need to tell it so you can understand the significance of what I recently found out. So please, check back in the coming days for new segments of Sasha & Tony 2001
Coming days? UGH! Damn you woman!
And I hear you on the actress thing. I’ve never dated one (that I remember), but I’ve met more than a few. Funny enough, for me, it was the successful ones who were awesome and down to earth and the unsuccessful ones who were selfish and obnoxious. You too?
THIS is what I’ve been missing about CCL. While we all don’t always agree with one another (which is bound to happen) you are an excellent story teller. I’m excited to return and see what happens next.
Wow… hard to imagine you letting a girl treat you this way but I get it. I can’t wait to read the next installment.
Hmmm…anyone want to take bets on what Sasha just found out? Definitely not to make light of her feelings at all, I’m just imagining some of you gals like me have a pretty good idea of what it might be.
And if it is what I’m thinking, that’s a little ironic considering I just had a long conversation with another lesbian I know just last night involving a mutual person of interest from the past, though in our case, it was a dude.
@Melissa – Tony and S? Yee Gads I hope it’s not so. Willa was fruitcake and S doesn’t sound much better. Sasha, it’s been almost 24 hours so, like, when you gonna spill?
@WWG I’m with you, lady!
@Melissa, say it ain’t so…
Have to ask, is this an actual pic of S’s ass?? Because it really looks like it.
@Tony – if that’s her ass, I get why Sasha was obsessed. I’m not into femmes, but damn is that a nice ass!
PS: The lovely ass pic is not “the actual ass” in question
…. but it could be her body double.
@ Jazmenha Daaaaammmnnnnn!! That is beautiful! Do you look like this? Sorta, kinda, maybe? A little less? Just asking…
@ Femmelover lol You are too funny/cute…. I dance 2 to 3 times a week and just started yoga (though yoga kicked my ass LOL) – the yoga instructor noticed and commented how flexible I am. LOL I wish I had an ass like that but Arnold S. wasn’t born with muscels like that in Terminator we all have to work at it. Let’s just say I absolutely LOVE to wear sexy/feminine under-stuff (I am too embarrased now to actually say panties LOL) so that is one major reason for my regular dancing etc
And since you asked lol check out Zumba Dancing on You-Tube that is my FAVORITE excerice that is what I do 2 or 3 times a week and I love biking and am going to try yoga again. 
@ Femmelover
hehehe You make me smile….I reread what I wrote LOL I was SO serious LOL in my reply- describing all my excercise routines lol silly Jazi 
I should have just replied to you, “Hell ya my ass looks like that…..wanta see?” 
hehe HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@ Jazmenha. Oh, YES!! And, plesse…
Correction…”PRETTY PLEASE”…
@ FEMMELOVER- Just got back from the dance studio and thought it would be fun to send you a clip of what Zumba dance is (of course I am not in it just found this on the net) – check out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vf0q6qtThF4&feature=related BUT ONLY pay attention to the dance instructor with the blue sportsbra top in front because everyone else is literally just joking around. I mean seriously LOL what is up with the random crossdressing Gasha-Girl in the left side back of room LOL. Anyhow, at the dance studio where I do this 3 times a week if we danced any less than the one in the blue sportsbra we would literally be asked to leave the studio so this video MUST be a joke of some type. lol But it gives you an idea of what Zumba dance is. I told myself if I go 3 not 2 times a week I can buy more sexy understuff lol for my collection. lol Did I mention I literally have an entire side cabinet (small 3 drawer cabinet) full of my sexy understuff lol collection. lol hehehehe Femmelover-Sometimes that is all I wear to bed. LOL I just had to add that last sentence for your entertainment and for that of Sasha and our “love triangle”. HEHEHEHE LOL LOL LOL (see I am not ALWAYS a prude in my wording LOL LOL LO Ok, 98% of the time I am prude in my wording LOL but nothing wrong with that- be who you are I always say-smiles) Hummm maybe I will go buy more for my collection today. LOL LOL LOL
@ Femmelover Ok
Big smiles. 
I will pack up my sexy understuff lol collection and meet you in NY 
hehehe
@ Jazmenha OMG! I’m sure your bed is happy EVERY night just to have you in it! LOL! I’m drooling all over the place right now.
I picture you trying on every single piece of your…”special collection” just for me…WOW! BEAUTIFUL! 
My imagination is on full blast!
Zumba looks fun. And, yes I saw the Gasha-girl at the back…lol! This type of dancing must keep the body in good shape. I’ve seen this on television and have always wanted to try it. I think my gym has a class once a week. I will have to check it out.
Have you ever been to NY? I hear it is very cold in the winter. You would need to be kept very warm at night…especially if you were to bring along “the collection”. Mmm,Mmm,Mmm!
@ Femmelover
big smiles from me- That all sounds awesome 
and I can show you some of my
hehehe
hugs to you
zumba moves. LOL
Yeah that Gasha-girl cross-dresser in the back of the video was very random. LOL I couldn’t stop laughing when I saw him/her. LOL
Keep me posted if you try zumba- I am totally hooked on it – it’s my fav type of dancing.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend.
(You do realized we have entertained lots of horny lesbians LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL with all of our little comments to eachother- LOL LOL LOL Well we are just supporting the community by entertaining them. LOL LOL LOL)
@ Femmelover- Opps guess I shouldn’t have made that last comment to the CCL readers. LOL LOL My bad-sorry everyone.
Just that I am sincerely crazy shy with everyone except you Femmelover. 
@Jazmenha…..repression can literally rip the doors off the closet once it dips a big toe in and finds out what it’s been missing. Stand stalwart, Femmelover….them waters are coming aboard. (snicker)
@Jazmenha – Let them listen! And, I am honored that you are not shy with me. I feel the same with you! Speaking with you (not talking to you) feels very comfortable and natural. You are truly a special woman.
Have you noticed we have not had any commenters? Listening seems to be the norm these last few day’s! LOL! 
Although, Rexie seems to be a braveheart!
I would love for you to show me your Zumba moves! It’s very sexy for sure. And, I am totally positive you are very good at it! Especially, if you don’t get kicked out of class! lol!
@ Rexie LOL
LOL
Thanks for the compliment 
. Sometimes when write (anything even serious stuff) then I feel a little embarrassed because I am SO sincerely shy in real life so opening up about anything on cyber space is SO strange for me. But I just feel like I can tell you anything 
because I can tell you are such a good soul (see I left off the “b” word LOL). I read some of the comments of people who disrespect Sasha as well as disrespect other people on here and it is unbelievable that someone can talk that way to someone. You would never do that. 
That is very funny- about my “not getting kicked out of class” LOL LOL Yeah my dance instructor would be VERY annoyed if someone was messing around like the Gasha-girl cross-dresser. LOL LOL Ok, I keeping in mind you would “love to see some of (my) zumba moves”- I think it would be fun to combine my sexy understuff lol show for you with my zumba moves. LOL LOL LOL hehehe LOL (I’m Blushing lol so I am going to run away now back into real life LOL LOL LOL) Hey, you are VERY spoiled lol by Sasha- Did you see all that eye-candy she posted for you? lol Too sweet- bet you are very happy. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
@ Femmelover
@Jazmenha Yes, I saw that eye candy for sure!! Tell, me – would you be more comfortable chatting via email? You say above that you are shy about our cyber space chats. Maybe we should email Sasha. Let me know what you want. I don’t want to make you feel strange in cyber space. Although, some of our listener’s will probably feel cheated out of a new blog so to speak…LOL! *Smile*.
I know you probably don’t understand but it makes some of us feel (I don’t quite know how to describe the feeling) weird, awkward. Basically, you just have to be butch/boi to understand it.
But, the hell if I wouldn’t give it my all…Whew, girl! 
I’m waiting….*Smiles*
And, yes…thank you for the compliment and for leaving the “b” word out
Yum! Zumba and your “special collection” together in the same space? OMG!…yes and please! I would love to see that. Although, I’m not sure I could…um…make it all the way thru that large of a collection. lol!
Yes, I must thank Miss Sasha for that sweet treat. My favorite here believe it or not is the gorgeous blonde in jeans. I just luv luv luv to run my hands down a woman and into the small of a back…damn, that turns me on. And, she has dimples too? OMG! And, no no no you didn’t think you were gonna get away now did you? I have just one or two questions for you…LOL! Do you own garter and stockings like the lady in picture two?
@Jazmenha. Although, if you are comfortable with our little cyber space chats, I am so fine with it.
I luv feeling like a bad boi…;)
@ Femmelover I just do not want people getting the wrong idea etc I mean I am SO far from a perve in reality- I mean I have never even kissed a girl lol – only because you know the whole story/low down on that one- my brother’s coming out drama of 4 yrs making me not act on anything bc I can’t deal w that drama myself etc. so I just do not want cyber space to think I am some unlady-like horny freak LOL LOL LOL because that could NOT be further from the truth because that is TOTALLY not who I am.
@ Jazmenha. I am so sorry if I’ve made you feel in any way, less than lady like. Maybe I have taken this a little bit to far for comfort and I sincerely apologize. I know that you are are not a perve…I was teasing you. I also know that you are all lady and I have nothing but the utmost respect for you. I promise to never make you feel this way ever again. So sorry beautiful lady. Furthermore, I don’t think anyone feels that you are anything but a gorgeous, intelligent and classy woman!
@ Femmelover Thank you. I appreciate that. I am sorry too. The reality is that I am so shy about talking about whatever out into random cyber space lol so I agree w your suggestion that it would be easier for me to talk with you via email and off of massive lol cyber space to avoid any misunderstandings since I am not all that comfortable with having an audience. lol So tomorrow (so tired now) I will send Sasha my new email for you tomorrow- I have changed emails since signed up for CCL. I know you are definitely a good and respectful person.
to write. I hope life finds you very happy and doing very well. hugs 
@ Sasha I hope you are doing ok- I am worried about you but hoping that since you haven’t written about your special bday that just means you are still enjoying the celebrations and that you’re just too busy
@ Femmelover You are the best!
I am sending Sasha my new email today so please ask her (only if you still want it of course- smiles). Did you end up going to zumba? What did you think of it? I have lots to tell you 
so will talk soon. Hope you have a great day. I am flying into LAX late this coming Friday night so I will be thinking of you and Sasha and sending lots of happy thoughts to both of you as I arrive in your guys home city. 
I live in the other big city of CA. LOL 
Hugs to you!
Jazmenha At this point…whatever you decide, goes! Sleep well and speak with you tomorrow.
Femmelover I sent Sasha my new email for you so feel free to ask her for it.
@ Femmelover I am cool with whatever- I just wish I felt better I am definitely coming down with a bad head cold
but between work and life there is absolutely no time to rest….I am going to see family this weekend and so hope I feel better before flying- that is not fun to fly sick. Good nt dear friend and hope you have a good week. I am so curious if you tried zumba dancing. lol Very fun. I didn’t go tonight bc not feeling well. Take care.
@ Jazmenha – I never liked using the (@) symbol to address anyone/ anyway! *Smile*. Yes, I still want your email, and I look forward to our meaningful conversations about life in general.
@ Sasha – What do you need from me in-order to make this happen?
@ Femmelover Yeah that sounds great. I am always up for new friends and meaningful conversations about life in general.
Sounds fun to have a pen-pal. 
Sasha sent me an email today that she had passed it on to you. Have a great night. 
Jazmenha (aka- “sicky” 
I am trying to drown my head cold in orange juice LOL so I feel better before flying to fam tomorrow night-yipes I am stressing lol about flying with stuffed head..)
*Sigh* Just had to re-read this whole series to put my own relationship woes in better perspective. :/
Elegy!! That sounded so sad
hope you’re ok!
But I’m always happy when my fucked up past is soooooo bad, it makes other people feel better about their fucked up situations! Lol
LOL. I fell in love with a self destructive idiot who put me through various forms of emotional abuse. =P
But yes, I’ll be okay. It’s just the emotions you detail in this story reflect my own, even though the situations are kind of different.
((Elegy))