Well thanks everyone for your extremely well thought out comments about my possible dive back into the dance world. I have to admit, sitting there last night with Remi as she read all the comments you left felt a little weird. I was worried that some of what was said would have a negative affect on her being OK with my belly dancing again.
But thank goodness, it didn’t … at least not any that she would admit to. But I guess we’ll just have to see what happens when I actually start performing again. Like anything that I do, if I’m going to do it, I want to do it right. So before I accept any invitations to dance again I’m going to take a little time to get myself back into what I consider “performance ready condition” a.k.a losing those last few pounds and having a few new costumes made up.
I guess once I start dancing for all the lesbians in town, I’m sure to have some juicy bits to blog about one way or another. What do you wanna bet that any group of ladies willing to pay to have another woman come and dance for them is going to be a pretty wild group? I’m sure I’ll overhear or witness more then a fair share of lesbian drama.
See? I do it for my art. It’s all connected. Dancing will let me write full time and at the same time, probably give me more material with which to entertain you with.
I’m sure this is all going to work out. I’ll be sure to post some pics of the new costumes and you can let me know what you think.
Oh, by the way … Anonymous2 asked, “ Not to sound like a jerk but who pays for shit when you guys go out? Are you maybe dancing again to finance your guy’s Friday nights? Because if you are, I’m sure she’d understand if you two spend some time at home. I know money can be a touchy subject but I was just wondering if that played into it at all???”
Well I have to say that I am NOT dancing to finance ANYTHING for Remi.
1) Remi does not take ANY money from me. EVER.
2) Like LBCDyke pointed out, she is a Marine and doesn’t let me pay for anything. Except for when I insist and even then, it never comes close to what she does for me.
3) I also have to say that Remi has offered and almost begged me to accept financial help from her. But I’m pretty prideful and stubborn and while I appreciate being wined and dined, nobody pays this femme’s bills. I would rather take my clothes off for strangers then accept a handout.
All in all I guess we’ll just have to see what happens. Who knows, something else might come up before I even get my first gig and then all this debate will have been for nothing.
Meanwhile I’m about to go hunt down some coins to cover a bra in ….. mmmm ….. the joys of glittery push-up bras that jingle when you enter a room …. 
I think you should dance. For me. I’ll pay anything you ask.
What did Remy think about safety precautions?
Hey Melody, well Remi is a little worried. To be honest we haven’t really talked about that part too much. But I think she just trusts my ability to defend myself. I dunno honestly … I’ll ask her and get back to you
Hey “Sasha” how come you never danced for me? If I had known you were for sale I would have put you up on auction for the highest bidder. LOL.
I hope you do dance some more and if you dance anywhere around the LA area post it and I’ll be sure to bring my homies with me to support you, if it’s at a public place like a club or restuarant.
heya Sash.. well self defense courses… something.. mace… hey even the Slayerettes knew that you were always safer in numbers. having someone with you that way.. heaven forbid something happens.. they could get you out.. call 911..i think dancing is a fantastic beautiful art form.. I am even a fan of stripping.. burlesque.. exploring your own sexuality .. but safety has to always come first.. as for your relationship.. buffy season 4… didnt willow say something like “he gets this blushy thing behind his ears when he sees her.. thats mine”
I think you’re stunning. I don’t blame you for taking advantage of your looks. I would too if I looked like you. Not saying that you do, but if you did it would be understandable. But it sounds like you don’t too much. oH and about the dancing, I’m with Melody it sounds like it could be dangerous.
I work at a club downtown and there are plenty of men that would pay TOP dollar to have you dance. I emailed you my # hit me up babe and I’ll hook it up. You’ll be set.
Seriously Sasha I think you should do anything else other then belly dancing. Maybe if you were kind of plain and boring it would be better. But I think you’re going to have more then u can handle in the way of psychos getting the wrong idea. Hire a bodyguard or something. Hell, I’ll be your bodyguard! lol
You would rather dance? Seriously?
It seems in your blog you and Remi are hopefully starting a long-term relationship. Problem is you live on control. It shows in your blog, your choice of employment, and your women. By denying Remi to help you financially is yet another way to control everything in your world.
I truly hope you and Remi can have a long lasting relationship, but at the rate you’ve already torn through the relationship … well … I feel bad for Remi.
Hey Dawg … I find your comment very interesting. What makes you say I live on control and that you can see it in my blog, employment and my women??!!!! I would actually love to know why you say that.
I agree with Dawg. I’ve been reading your blog since the beginning and you do seem to have serious control issues but you hide them under your femme persona as if letting someone open a door for you or pay for dinner is giving up some control and part of you probably hates that. I bet when you worked at that well paying job you hated, you loved being able to pay for everything because then you control everything. Maybe you fear that letting Remi help you out will only give her too much control. But in a loving relationship that shouldn’t even enter your head. If she loves you and can help, you should let her. You’re cheating her out of taking care of her gf, who she loves right? I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t hesitate to give her money f the situation were reversed and from what I’ve read about you, I’m sure you wouldn’t take no for an answer.
Dawg hit on something when they mentioned your control issues but I think it mostly seems like problems with authority. I wonder how this affects you in bed. You did write something about a femme in the streets but a butch in the sheets …. mmmmm Sasha, maybe your next blog should be about who wears the strap-on in your relationship? That would be interesting.
Sasha, do your relationship a favor … take one step back and look at it. Do you control everything?
It’s not hard to spot in your blog, anyone with a degree who’s taken psychology can tell you that.
You choose femme’s because of their appearance or their weakness to the dominant?
Your choice of employment has either given you a powerful position or as a writer total control.
If Remi really is the one you want to have a long-term relationship with … respect her … let her help you. I relationship is 50-50, right?