Guess who just got back from the Apple store?
I begged and pleaded my case for an early iPad on the premise that her new schedule has me all discombobulated and since I wrote 19 pages yesterday, I am sure to finish by the April 30th deadline. But in the meantime, this would help me get through the crazy schedule change. I did throw a little bit of guilt in there for good measure. Like how when she sleeps, she sometimes lashes out and I’ve been hit full on with elbows to the head more then half a dozen times. Low blow? Yea, I know but it worked.
Because on the way home, she stopped at the Manhattan Beach Apple store. On the way in she told me it was only to look at them, for more motivation. But once we were in there playing with the new iPad, she typed out a few messages for me.
First it was, “Do you know how much I love you?
I nodded, “No.”
She typed, “This much.”
I looked at her questioningly.
She typed, “Do you want to get it tonight?”
This was when I should have been jumping up and down, saying “YES PLEASE!!!!!”
But my reaction surprised even me. I turned down the early gift. Why you might ask?Because it didn’t feel right or good. It felt like I was cheating. Even though part of the new deal I brokered with her was that if I didn’t finish by the deadline, she would take it away.
Still, it didn’t feel the way I wanted to feel when I finally get it. I know it’s just an iPad. But it’s symbolic of a major accomplishment in my life. Something that I have been putting off forever and then using as an excuse for not really getting on with other accomplishments and goals.
So even though Remi gave in and was willing to buy it for me tonight, I decided to wait until I had really earned it. Just knowing that she loved me enough to do it because she wanted me to be happy was more then enough.
For now, I guess I’ll be a thesis-writing machine. 
PS: I’ve blogged before about how gay the Apple store is before and it was again confirmed by the little Asian tranny that we ran into there. He was wearing a very cute, pink, spaghetti strap summer dress.
No would could ever accuse you of being morally bankrupt. Hey, whatever works! I know you WANT to finish your thesis, and if the rich satisfaction of reward is what spurs you on, then more power to you. My respect for you has been raised even higher. I am pretty sure self-respect was at the core of your decision to wait. You are the orderly sort and no way are you gonna put the cart before the horse.
Alas, you’re a much stronger woman than I. I’d have been like “HELL YES!” and then not had the motivation to finish my thesis. So hooray on holding out until your reward is deserved!
Sasha- What is your thesis on? Good luck I know you will do a terrific job on it. Happy weekend.
Thanks for the support y’all
Jazi, my thesis is on Quantum Physics and it’s relationship to Theology. As I’m writing it, it’s been taking on a life of it’s own … morphing into something slightly different then it started out as. So I’ll have to tell you what it actually ends up being about! Because the original idea was quantum physics and it’s relationship to alternative health care practices. I know that sounds boring to a lot of folks so I don’t talk about it a lot. :/ lol
Ok Sasha now you have gone and done it….brains, beauty, personality.
I know I could not spell Quantum lol but that’s ok – I am a writer of poetry where bad spelling can be excused by creative freedom. lol Best of luck on your thesis writing. I know it will be very well written, very informative and an overall well done finished product. I’m very proud of you my friend.
Sounds like you have My kinda spouse. S/he just bought me a MacBook Pro & an iPad2. Did I marry a mensch, or what? I’m also a writer, so we justify it as a “work expense.” I’d advise buying a cool cover for the iPad. It helps to protect and preserve it.
It does sound a bit boring, but you could spice up your writing for your blog. I loved seeing high-road Sasha in the blog above, but I honestly love super-spy-quality-brains Sasha in the comments section!
QUANTUM PHYSICS???? Holy fucking shit.
oooh ooh oooh ooh! I don’t think it sounds boring at all and I would love to read it. My own mind quakes under the weight of trying to see the parallels and cross-sections between the relational comparisons. I can’t wait for you to be Dr. Sasha. You are an icon, my dear.
Oh, and what I meant by “boring” was “way over my head, so I need dumbed down version” not that is is actually, literally “boring.”
Ok, so glasses kind of go with a thesis in Quantum Physics. They should be standard issue.
Quantum Physics and its relationship with Theology. That should be interesting. I would love if you would post the gist of it when you’re all finished. Seriously.
And when do we get to start calling you Dr.?
Quantum physics and theology? If you publish out of that I sure as heck want to see it!