Guess who just got back from the Apple store?
I begged and pleaded my case for an early iPad on the premise that her new schedule has me all discombobulated and since I wrote 19 pages yesterday, I am sure to finish by the April 30th deadline. But in the meantime, this would help me get through the crazy schedule change. I did throw a little bit of guilt in there for good measure. Like how when she sleeps, she sometimes lashes out and I’ve been hit full on with elbows to the head more then half a dozen times. Low blow? Yea, I know but it worked.
Because on the way home, she stopped at the Manhattan Beach Apple store. On the way in she told me it was only to look at them, for more motivation. But once we were in there playing with the new iPad, she typed out a few messages for me.
First it was, “Do you know how much I love you?
I nodded, “No.”
She typed, “This much.”
I looked at her questioningly.
She typed, “Do you want to get it tonight?”
This was when I should have been jumping up and down, saying “YES PLEASE!!!!!”
But my reaction surprised even me. I turned down the early gift. Why you might ask?Because it didn’t feel right or good. It felt like I was cheating. Even though part of the new deal I brokered with her was that if I didn’t finish by the deadline, she would take it away.
Still, it didn’t feel the way I wanted to feel when I finally get it. I know it’s just an iPad. But it’s symbolic of a major accomplishment in my life. Something that I have been putting off forever and then using as an excuse for not really getting on with other accomplishments and goals.
So even though Remi gave in and was willing to buy it for me tonight, I decided to wait until I had really earned it. Just knowing that she loved me enough to do it because she wanted me to be happy was more then enough.
For now, I guess I’ll be a thesis-writing machine.
PS: I’ve blogged before about how gay the Apple store is before and it was again confirmed by the little Asian tranny that we ran into there. He was wearing a very cute, pink, spaghetti strap summer dress.